friends are more important to you.
might be on your priority list i think.
me, maybe at the other end of the list.
i'm trying my very best to compromise.
trying my very best to not rely on you, settle problems by myself.
but today, i had a bad day. i feel so fucked up.
you weren't there.
ya. meet tmr. and by tmr, my problem is not a problem already.
i think most of my sleeping time, i spend it on finding solutions to my problem.
maybe for every problems i had nxt time, you can just dont meet me. just say meet tmr.
then i can spend my sleeping time thinking of ways to solve my own problems by myself.
i really want to reduce our quarrels, trying to control my bad temper.
even when you had your comments on whatever i do, i still take it. because i don't wanna quarrel.
but today when my day was really bad, you're having dinner with your friends.
whereas for me, i'm alone at home.
watching dvd after dvds. walking around my house doing nth, turning in my beds, typing this unnessesary post.

how can i make myself more understanding.
how. you tell me.

maybe i shd just fuck off from this world.