i forgot to take my packed food i tabao from kopitiam.
and i only realise it after an hr.
am i stupid or what.




finally its a friday. i don't really like school. but i must get use to it.
i miss working with BDD ppl.

so much to say.
i'm meeting leeshean later!

changi general hospital send me a letter inviting me to apply their nursing sponsership.
should i?
i'm in a dilemma.



i'm not gonna forgive you.

hectic life at the moment

sorry for the lack of update.
i'm busy preparing for sch.
orientation was tiring. but fun :D
alot of cheers to do.
i made quite a no. of new friends. but almost all were younger than me.
BF send me home. i'm too tired and lazy to take bus.
after bathing we headed back over to BF house to meet up with weizhang, meow & co.
headed down to town for dinner and to jalan bahar for drifting.
all of them are crazy man!
then to damsey road for ice-cream & boat quay. BARDOT.
down to ICON but it's full. BF & i left for home.

btw, i'm no longer working already. sch have started.
the timetable is like brain teaser lor!
it's confusing me.
monday's class is starting at 9am. but it ends at 11am.
that's like omg, might as well don't go sch.
meeting up with sitong soon!
SHEAN I WANT TO MEET YOU ALSO!!

friends are more important to you.
might be on your priority list i think.
me, maybe at the other end of the list.
i'm trying my very best to compromise.
trying my very best to not rely on you, settle problems by myself.
but today, i had a bad day. i feel so fucked up.
you weren't there.
ya. meet tmr. and by tmr, my problem is not a problem already.
i think most of my sleeping time, i spend it on finding solutions to my problem.
maybe for every problems i had nxt time, you can just dont meet me. just say meet tmr.
then i can spend my sleeping time thinking of ways to solve my own problems by myself.
i really want to reduce our quarrels, trying to control my bad temper.
even when you had your comments on whatever i do, i still take it. because i don't wanna quarrel.
but today when my day was really bad, you're having dinner with your friends.
whereas for me, i'm alone at home.
watching dvd after dvds. walking around my house doing nth, turning in my beds, typing this unnessesary post.

how can i make myself more understanding.
how. you tell me.

maybe i shd just fuck off from this world.

our 1mth dinner. 060409

while smoking.



inside crystal jade.


outside suntec city.

headed to BALCONY for some drinks after our dinner.
had some small talks on how to improve our relationship & stuff.



chinatown trip with girlfriend. shean.

omg, it's a nice shopping paradise there man.
i even bought a furry leopard skin cloth to deco my drawer from ikea.

i heart it alot alot man!


this week is darn busy.

thursday : boon siang's bdae celebration with BF & co.

weizhang bringing in the bdae cake for bdae boy.

sing & make a wish.

group photo.

lastly, a pic of me & BF. <3



saturday : BF drove me, lionel & meow to bugis for mala steamboat. my tongue went numb afterthat.

sunday [today] : me being a good girl, headed straight home after work :D


omg, my throat is darn pain now.
i think i ate too much fried food recently.
i can feel the pain even when i swallow my saliva.
i'm a sick person now.
flu, cough, sore throat.
tmr having swensens with BF.

i want my samsung P3. faster faster.

happy 1 month! :D




today 6th april 2009, marks our 1 mth.
though its short, but i still treasure all the 30/31 days of being together.
many things happen, ups and downs.
i'm fortunate to have him as my BF.
and though sometimes i throw tantrum, making a big fuze out of small things, show him attitude, he will still try his best to make me happy and give in to me even though it's my fault all the time.

like ytd, its one day before our 1 mth, and we had 2 arguements.
one of them is because BF didn't want to eat swensens with me :(
and i scold him.
we argued all the time til im off from work and back home.
he gave in to me and say sorry but i'm kind of guilty because it's my fault for being angry.
in the end he gave me a surprise by waiting outside my doorstep in the middle of the night.



and TADAHHHHHHHHHH~
he gave me a Salvatore Ferragamo hairband as our 1 mth gift!
omg i heart it darn lot! i heart red.
it's been in my wishlist for freaking long already and i never expect BF to buy for me lor!
though its ridiculous for a hairband to cost a few hundred bucks.


and then inside the box, there's a picture of me & him with 2 HP strap, both his and my name.

yay! i'm going to crystal jade with BF later!
i love my boy many many!
and i want to buy photoframe to put me & BF picture.
of cos still got my other besties too!

when this kind of thing is unimportant to you, i shall take it as unimportant too.
though it may be a minor issue, or maybe nth to you, i still mind.
but since it's nth to you, it's nth to me anymore.
and then, everything will be nth soon.
you don't understand, no one will understand too.
only myself, because i'm the only one feeling this pain.
i'm heartbroken, though angry at first, but those words you've said, it turns my anger into sadness.

and i know someone is reading my blog too.
i don't know how she feels when she saw this post, maybe ..... ?
because i read her blog too.
and i found her link out of somewhere.

you miss him, you miss the heart to heart talks under his/your block.
you miss eating with him at market....

these 2 days pass so fast. BF stayed at my house ytd.
and the time fly super fast. :(
before i meet him ytd, i went to shop. bought hell lotsa things!
and was nagged by BF for not saving up money.
but i need to buy poly clothes.



my shopping loots.

new colours. i heart that blood red one!

earring holder.

my chanel loose powder. this time i bought a lighter tone one.

and my other clothes & a bag from C&K.


went to AMK HUB to catch a movie with BF just now.

pepper lunch before hand.

so cool the show.
BF say it's draggy :\
headed back to our own home as we both were tired due to the late night slp we had ytd
and he's gonna play soccer with his friends later.
meeting up with sitong later.
yay! it's time to have girl's talk. hoho.